speak your truth

my sister has been a speaker of her truth for as long as i can remember. especially for other people - like myself, she always spoke up for me when i was afraid. now she does it for herself. i've always believed in it and appreciated it and at most times in my life feel i have spoken my truth. but until recently, i don't think i really have understood the real impact of speaking your truth. when you actually do say something that is, in a way, eating at you and it finally creeps out, you feel free, and in a way, more alive.

i have a habit of playing out situations in my head. over and over and over and over...usually it takes a while before i actually make the situation occur because i fret about "saying the right thing" or acting the right way. i think, to be truthful, i'm more afraid of the response not being what i expected, leading me to be out of control of the situation i've so overplayed in my head. i recently realized it's a waste of time - all that "playing out" and fretting.

i think i'm actually, i know, i'm happier with the results that have occurred after i've finally spoken my truth than what i've expected to happen.

that's about it - speak your truth & really mean it - to everyone you know. you are you and you must be proud of it and OWN it. your thoughts are an integral part of who you are.

so if any of you have anything to say to me, tell me. i'm here with open ears. (and eyes if you type it hehe)

LOVE you all, that's my truth

blizzard after blizzard after blizzard

Gosh I can see how easy it could be to develop what they've named "seasonal anxiety disorder or depression." I have honestly been loving the snow, I jump around with Vegas in it, but today is BITTERLY cold! One thing I do enjoy however is the crispness of the air, and how everything just looks brighter. And by reading my blog, you know I always try to look on the bright side of things, isn't it nicer to look out your window and see the moon reflecting off the crystally white snow than the slushy dirty greyness we have been getting in the Winters of the past? - OK I'm human too, that's my bright side but MAN IT'S COLD & I look forward to Spring.

What I'd really like to "blog" about today is again, friends - I've been able to connect with so many people from my past on facebook that I honestly wouldn't think I'd ever be able to talk to again. One person today especially comes to mind. We have been friends, whether we've talked or not, for almost 20 years. This person will always have a deeply embedded place in my heart. I've always seen a joy, warmth, passion and creativity in them that always made me smile. There were days I cried for them because I knew they were going through rough times, or couldn't see their own greatness and understand that they deserved nothing but the best from life and those around them. But as a friend, sometimes you just have to let go or even walk away. Sometimes the timing in life is just wrong and doesn't allow them to really hear you. And if you truly do love them, you'll let them know you'll be there when they need you.

Even if you don't connect, putting yourself out there, just so that person knows you're there can make a universe of difference. I know it has for those that have done so for me. I have made it a point in my life to disconnect from those that have brought me negativity and bad energy. I call those people vampires (not the cool kind). They plug into you and SUCK your energy so you have no more. Hey, I need all I can get and the ones I love deserve it more than those that don't love me.

So my old friend, if you read this, know I'm always here and always have been. To all my current friends, or those that are just reading and don't know me...allow yourself to be loved and let your love be known. Like with kids, there's a point you have to let them fall down, but let them know you're there to help them up.

xxoo - k

My friends

This post is generally about life. A message from one of my friends on facebook struck me as inspiring tonight. As most all of you know, I have had some health issues over the past couple years. I feel strongly about my success in overcoming them and continuing to heal. Much of this is due to my inner strength, determination and refusal to give up. But, most of it is because of my support system, my friends & family - the ones who won't let me stay down. The ones that share their ups and downs with me. They empathize with me, cry or laugh with me about our downs and smile about our ups.

Life can be hard, it can be tragically hard at times. However, how we choose to get through the hard times is what makes us who we are. If you're having a hard time, just take a deep breath and know that I'm here for you as I'm sure others in your life are as well. Let someone know, swallow the pride and ask for a hug if you need.

Life is a roller coaster, there are ups and there are downs, but the ride sure is fun so enjoy it while you can.

love you all - k

push push push

(had to share one of my baby pics, it just makes me smile :):):)

what a beautiful day! i have many happy things flowing through my brain this morning - but i have to say i am inspired this week by my friend and co-worker, karen! we are feverishly working to complete TONS of work this week to prepare for our cha show. karen is omg - soooooooo sick. not ONCE did she complain this week or give me attitude or whine or anything! she's just there for me and our company to get things done. that is strength that she dug deep down for.

i pray that she's sleeping right now (i told her she could sleep next week ;) and recouping!

Let's all be inspired and DIG DEEP to find that bit of strength to get us through whatever obstacle we face today! keep your eye on that light at the end of the tunnel - believe me it's there and it shines brighter and brighter every day!

KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE STARS AND YOUR FEET ON THE GROUND

be free

this morning an older song i used to (and still) love played on my ipod. it always takes me back to a moment where i felt completely free. i had a friend whose apartment was about 1 block from wrigley field. we'd go there quite often and just chill. play games, watch movies, whatever. one night we were just hangin out, lights were off, but xmas lights in full splendor. i was sitting on the floor, i think the windows were open and we had the verve blasting. lucky man was playing. it was one of my favorite moments of all time.

that may have been a while ago and those that may know of the times i'm talking about may think "yeah, that was when we hardly had any responsibility, we were young and no worries." i say, so what? all i know is that the feeling of freedom i had that night was the best feeling in the world - peaceful, happy, wonderful.

i get that feeling every now and then, like when i paint, take a walk in a forest, drive forever with the windows down. it could be that simple.

my point being - just find something every now and then that makes you feel free and don't forget to make it a habit. you and those around you will enjoy your life better for it.

peace - k

connections

So I'm new to facebook -
yes we are addicted, at least I will be for the next week or so. It's amazing the 6 degrees of separation there is between my friends. What I find most amazing are those I haven't seen or spoken to in FOREVER. Mainly, from highschool. It's hard enough to get through our busy weeks and keep in touch with our super close friends, let alone the ones we used to connect with, though haven't in years. So for enabling me to connect with those that have at one time or another made me smile, facebook, I thank you :)

Let's all keep our hearts and minds open, ya never know what you might discover or who you might impact.

- k

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Hello everyone! Here's to an incredible 2009 for everyone! it's been such a wonderful day and fun evening, again filled with more laughter than I can almost handle!

For 2009 - be aware, love and allow yourself to be loved and know there's nothing to really be afraid of.

Love you all and happy happy new year!!

- k