i'm considering a change

i've noticed my extreme lack of postings lately and it isn't because i'm uninspired. i'm quite inspired as of late actually. so... i believe from here on out, i'm going to be not so focused on having to deliver an inspirational life lesson. instead i'm going to write what i feel, observe, create, etc. and those inspirational life lessons/stories should creep in inadvertently every once in a while.

however, sticking true to my artistic nature, i will always blog to evoke emotion and provoke thought in my readers.

do what makes you happy,
much love
k

don't worry...

life is an ever-evolving landscape. it can be rough, overwhelming, joyous, passionate, amazing, painful and even more words possibly not even yet added to webster's dictionary. what is so remarkably wonderful about this life is that we're living it. WE get to make the choice to experience each moment exactly as WE want to.

there was a commercial that aired some years back (it was either for chiquita bananas or life insurance). it closed in on an elderly woman, (the cutest woman i've seen i might ad)and she says, "i have two choices when i wake up each morning; to be happy or not to be happy. i choose to be happy." i have a friend, actually a couple of friends who are memorably pleasant every single day, which in turn makes every experience i have with them, well...pleasant. they have each changed my life in different ways and i would love to do that for others.

i know there's a myriad of obstacles, changes, mishaps, diversions that can sidetrack us from the original focus for the day. how nice would it be to be able to wake up and say "i'm going to be happy today." if we decide to make this choice every morning, wouldn't it enevitably change how our entire course of our day goes? i think so. in fact i'm going to try it. if i choose to be happy every day, then no matter what comes my way, i imagine, my outlook and therefore the outcome will be better than what it would have been had i not made the "happy choice."

this all sounds a bit alice in wonderland like, but that's a world that makes sense to me.

reflections on 2010....

i've taken some random moments over the past week to reflect back on 2010. the word that sums it all up for me is change. i made conscious efforts to change the way i react to things, people and situations. this underlying thought process lead me to many wonderful moments over the past year.

the most recent being my new career path. it's been 4th months of crazy, unending challenges and i look back and know i have loved every second of it. i am one that needs to be constantly challenged and inspired to be the best i can be. the challenges this position presents me allow me to accomplish so very much and grow along the way. making this change has also lead me to a group of people who continue to make me reach out of my comfort zone and help me to reach past what i think i might be capable of.


the "change the way i do things" attitude i've upheld through 2010 has also allowed me to experience more selfless moments. i have always liked to give and make people happy, but i believe since having to rehab from my physical & emotional downfalls from my strokes, i had become accustomed to concentrating so very much on myself and just "functioning" that i got a little lost in myself and at times, forgot how important it is to think of others as well (without losing yourself of course). this gave me more balance.

the other thing my change in attitude brought me was more courage. now granted, i don't believe anyone has ever thought of me as frail, feeble or defenseless, but there are many things in my life i would not do at all or do without being extremely shaken inside. i may not be very good at hiding my passions or emotions, but i'm really good at hiding when i feel vulnerable. this new found courage and strength has freed me from missing out on life, feeling like a burden to others or irrational fears like flying or simply being me. i still feel some butterflies or have my weak moments, but never like i had before... no shakes, no sickness or tears, just occasional self doubt that i like to think just keeps me on my toes ;).

my inspiration to you for 2011 is this... give yourself a small mantra you can repeat in your head (or out loud, whatever you prefer ;) that makes you question for a moment if this is how you want to react to whatever you're encountering. one little shift of action, attitude or feeling and entirely change your life. do NOT be afraid of change! look around and reflect on all the wonderful things in life that seem to be the most beautiful! they are ALL about change! sunsets, eclipses, gems, snowflakes, seasons, water... on and on and on and on.

"be the change you want to see in the world" - Gandhi

much love, change, chaos, strength and beauty to you all...
-k-

i will continue to take this mantra of change with me throughout my life, now, for me, 2011 brings movement... "ONWARD"