finding balance...

since i can remember, i've loved alice in wonderland. i've seen, read, worn, studied everything alice... disney, lewis carroll, through the looking glass, essays, studies, satires, remakes, sci fi remakes, prints, t-shirts, pop-up books, costumes, presentations, therapy, escapism, jaberwocky, inspiration, artwork, music... EVERYTHING!!!!! needless to say, i've been anxiously awaiting the release on friday of Tim Burton's movie (so much that i was going to see the first midnight show on thursday by myself, but my mom wants to go too, so i'll wait :).

i've learned soooo much about the story and characters, it eventually made me wonder, why did i choose this as my "obsession" since i was a little girl? i then started to think about why i relate to it so very much. i do admit that i enjoyed the escapism it offered, but alice took that route too. there wasn't anyone in her life that really understood her, so she went into a world of her own. interestingly enough, a world she THOUGHT was a place that made sense to her, but made none at all. it was a place completely opposite of her "boring, structured life." "Everything is what it wouldn't be and what it wouldn't be it is" eventually this world she created becomes, scary, lonely and just too much!

i know i've done the same thing in my life and still have a tendency too (though i don't recall specifically falling down a rabbit hole, i can say my disasociative behavior could be the same thing... just not as fun ;)

my point is... finding balance. be ok with the fact that only you might be able to be the one who understands you... or seek out the company of others that at least enjoy all of you... even if they may not understand you. (i've found it may actually be the "weirdness" about you that keeps others' attention and makes them appreciate you even more).

life's too short to conform, the balance is... be who you are and bring that from your mind to the outside... you'll be amazed at how much more enjoyable your own little world can be when you share it.

xxoo
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